Sunday, October 09, 2005

a few weeks ago, i heard my neighbour playing a song on repeat and it reminded me of old times. you know how some songs that you've not heard for a thousand years, can bring back memories when you happen to hear them playing somewhere... on your playlist, or on the radio.. or even on your neighbour's speakers.

the memories came flooding back. i could almost fully recall the feelings. but you can never feel exactly the same way you felt a long time ago. or maybe you can. but i don't want to. it's pointless. but yes, it's the aching feeling in the heart.

i've actually decided for quite some time already, that i won't give it a shot, i'll let it pass. i'm never going to find out what went wrong, and why it was so easy. i want to know, but i'm not going to find out. cuz i was the one who screwed it up. i can't face my own mistake, and there's no way i can make up for it. it'll be a lie to deny i'm gonna think about this once in a while and feel stupid, cuz i will never be able to let it all go. not that i don't want to. i can't. but i'll try to remember my decision and live with it.

so put your arms around me...
make me believe...
take me, take me somewhere...
let me believe...
cuz only time can take you...
so stop.

janet at 9:09 PM