Friday, April 30, 2004

the swoc cousellor meeting was okay. there was this guy who was being really corny during the meeting. everytime he said something lame, i'd roll my eyes haha. the things he suggested were really weird. maybe, he was juz trying to be funny?

in case u peeps don't know, i'm a rocking blk A cousellor for sheares hall orientation, together with laggist, ah han, kg and pageant-king-and-shuai hh. orientation is gonna be a blast with us man!! can't wait to see those raw freshies *evil laff*

oh, something really funny happened during the meeting. swoc lena was saying that a cousellor from every blk will a blk IC, who may hafta go back for more meetings with her, and is to be in charge of the rest of the cousellors of the individual blk's cousellors. then i was thinking to myself: hh is gonna kena man... (well, he was late for the meeting). then i saw kg, aaron and ah han whispering whispering, then ah han turned to me and mouthed "H-A-R-O-L-D". great minds think alike =) and BINGO! hh is our IC =) honestly, there wasn't any sabotage involved cuz it was lena who appointed hh to be the IC!! =)

oh, and i'm teaming up with other 3 cousellors from other blks to come up with some ideas for FRIGHT NITE. how cool is that! i had an experience of fright nite once from bizad orientation camp last yr... but im sure we can come up with really scary stuffs to spook those freshies out *evil grin*

ok, enough of cousellor and orientation stuffs. looking fwd to seeing the girls tmr!! haven't met up with them for a long long time... the last time i saw them all, including the twins, was at embargo when the twins were back from aust for hol. im really excited!! missed them so much... and finally we're all free ('cept the twins who r still in aust) to meet up for lunch and prolly some (window) shopping? =P

janet at 11:50 PM

john stevens is finally out of the competition. he doesn't even belong there in the first place! last nite he sang music of my heart, and it was HORRIBLE. hahaha, and guess what was simon cowell's comment? latin pop and john stevens are like chocolate icecream with an onion. says it all doesn't it? =) i want latoya or fantasia to win the american idol! george huff's fine... but i hate the way he bends his knees and go low and stand up straight again when he sings. and the way he blinks, he disgusts me.

anyway, here's some updates about my boring life:

1. formatted my pc, and using win xp.
2. subscribed to broadband... er... 256 only =T
3. got a haircut, and i think i look sucky.
4. watched loads of tv... and according to laggist.. every 100 hours of tv lowers ur iq by 1. so my iq's about -12 by now since my iq's v low to start with.
5. solved a really tough pri 2 math problem.
6. finished reading lovely bones. not exactly a v lovely book, but urm... teared at a few sad parts *embarrassed look*
7. gonna start reading newsweek and reader's digest accumulated since january *embarrassed look again*

OK, about point no. 5, it's totally ridiculous to ask a pri 2 kid a math question that goes like this:

a rice bin can hold 4kg of rice when full. a container can hold 3kg of rice when full. use this 2 objects and get exactly 2kg of rice.

i looked at that question and went "WHAT THE HELL". i told my sis i didn't know how to do that question (cuz i didn't try v hard to solve it.... and... my iq's about -12... and i really suck at math) and she went to tell my father "uni student also dunno how to do". so that nite, i went to discuss this question with my mum and dad.. and finally got the answer. sigh.. u guys may wanna try and solve it. it's pretty ez after all. BUT THEY CAN'T EXPECT A BLOODY PRI 2 KID TO SOLVE LAR!!!!!!!!

there's gonna be a first swoc cousellor meeting tonite in hall. but going back earlier to bum ard with sw and prolly help her shift her stuffssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss to blk E. (notice the number of s's?) =P

janet at 1:48 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

if u really wanna know.. i had a pretty good day today despite the fact that i had to wake up at 7.30am this morning to go back to hall to clear up. well, had a pretty good lunch, then caught 50 first dates as GV PS, ate gelare (waffles r half priced on tues!) and had tom yam ban mian for dinner =)

50 first dates really cracked me up. a combo of adam sandler, drew barrimore and rob sheneider (whatever the spelling) really made the show hilarious. a must-watch... it's at least 5 times better than starsky and hutch which i watched last friday.

anyway, i'm really hard on money. i'm seriously considering getting a job now. i can't keep getting money from my parents when i go out right? this morning, my mum left me some money under my wallet... it's v nice of her that she noticed i dun haf much to spend, but things can't go on this way. sigh... it's either i stay home and rot and prevent myself fr spending money, or i go to work. arghhhh... =/

for now, i think i'll juz catch american idol on starworld... and haf a nice cup of tea and enjoy the solace.

janet at 10:47 PM

Monday, April 26, 2004

my fitness level has dropped.. went jogging in the morning and couldn't even complete one round of the neighbourhood. terrible. time to work on the fats man.

anyway, i've finally started reading lovely bones which i bought earlier this year and didn't manage to find time to read it during term time. it's about a girl named susie who was raped and killed by her neighbour, and how she could see whatever's happening on earth in heaven. basically, the police are still investigating her death as far as i've read. *shrug* doesn't sound very interesting ya? but a couple of my friends have good reviews for the book. so i'll juz read on, and probably i'll like it =)

going back to hall tmr to clear up the rubbish considerate acers have left behind and all the shitty work. i juz hope i'll be able to wake up and tahan the long journey back hall. dread... dread.... dread...

janet at 11:36 PM

Saturday, April 24, 2004

new blog skin!

i changed a new blog skin =) this skin gives a very gothic feeling... dun really like it a lot, but at least it's not as plain as my previous dull blog look right? not sure y the title doesnt come out. i know nuts about html.

im waiting for my parents to reach hall to help me with shifting. moving back home to stay for a good 3 months or so. i didn't realize i had so much barang barang and little stuffs in this tiny room. i'll miss staying away from home and seeing friends everyday. but on the brighter side, there's gonna be air con and tv! i can always meet up with friends ya? =)

im not sure what i wanna do this hols. dad keeps pestering me to take driving lessons, but mum says if i pass and buy the lousy vivio that my couz terence drives, she won't let me stay in hall. cuz then, i can drive to sch everyday. but... i'd rather stay in hall... but i wanna drive too!! dunno if i should work... and im not sure if i can find a part time job too. im lazy!!!

janet at 8:16 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

finally...

exams ended =)

didn't exactly enjoy the day out... but it was gd anyway, cuz i got to go out with this cute bugger who only wants to watch dawn of the dead. ended up watching nothing. GUYS.................

didn't manage to buy a lot of stuffs... so sad. i hate going out and only buying the minimal. not that i've got a lot of money to spare, but it's the after-exams-behavior-to-want-to-buy-a-lot-of-stuffs u know? =/

anyway.. nice shirt jy =) and i have good taste ok!!!!!!!!

janet at 11:50 PM

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

falling sick... at the right time...

i can feel it coming... the throat is sore alr... head is aching... the area above the eyes (whatever it's called) is numb... im falling sick. but woah, thankfully i only have my last paper to go. and the weather is still the warm... sucks man. is there a right time to fall sick? i believe so. i hate to fall sick during the crucial exam periods... hate to fall sick during the hols... aiyah, i juz hate to be sick la. who doesnt anyway... *diao...*

it's like i want to slp but the weather is juz too warm. last nite, i juz kept tossing and turning, changing positions like slping with my head at the end of my bed and my legs at the head of my bed. get what im trying to say? i was so frustrated cuz i couldn't slp that i woke up to check if the lounge was occupied cuz i wanted to go slp there... but there were 2 hardworking dudes doing their revision inside *sigh*.

my last few nites in this cursed room that attracts any kinds of big and small bugs, darn glad i am.

and there's breaking news today in sg... a stretch of road on nicoll highway collapsed. rarely there's news so big in sg... not that it's very big... i thot it could be a terrorist attack on sg cuz there was this major power shutdown in suntec city and raffles city s.c. well, im relieved that it was merely a accident and nothing more like an attack... it's tragic that there're fatalities... life's juz so unpredictable i guess.

janet at 12:46 AM

Monday, April 19, 2004

spoon missing...

i lost my fav spoon... saturday, i left my unwashed cup and spoon in the kitchen with the intention of washing it. BUT i forgot... when i got back to hall, i went to the kitchen to get my coffee, and saw my unwashed cup! but there ain't no spoon in it! damn... damn the arsehole who stole my spoon. it'd better appear back in the kitchen after that moron is done using it. !()@*()#*)@(*$091324

oh, i juz couldnt' study at home at all. i slept for 16 hours in total (nite slp and 2 naps) in juz a day. gosh. and watched like a few hours worth of tv. when i tried to study, i juz felt like slping. home is juz too cozy, so i hafta come back to this stinking oven to study. wtf... =/

janet at 3:51 PM

Saturday, April 17, 2004

home sweet home...

hey peeps! i'm finally back home... slept the whole evening thru cuz it was juz so comfortable with the air con on, and was really tired cuz i had a morning paper earlier on (which was terrible for me).

it's gonna show "i am sam" on cable later, yay! i managed to only catch the last hour of the show the first time i watched it. so tonite, im gonna watch the full show! it's really nice... it's about this mentally retarded dad (sean penn) who's trying to win custody of his daughter (who is like really smart). the whole show is pretty sad. the dotter likes her dad, but everyone thinks that he is unable to take care of her becuz he's retared. but they love each other!! and ya.. i nv fail to tear at sad movies la, tho the ending is a happy one.

so slack so slack... the next (and also last) paper is on thurs... international and macro econs. i skipped a few lectures, and didn't do more than half of the tutorials for this module, so im gonna start revising tmr (if everything goes well, i.e. im not feeling lazy, and nothing's showing on cable, nobody comes visiting etc).

and ooooooo, did i come back home at the right time!! there's pasar malam in the neighbourhood! haha, my bro is gonna get me a sausage, chicken wing and durian.... =P can't wait till he gets back.

enjoy ur weekend peeps!

janet at 8:37 PM

Friday, April 16, 2004

love is....

i was watching blueprint's "princess moon" in keywin's rm with laggist too, and the last 2 lines of the show moved me to tears.

"love is measured by the size of the hole it leaves behind.... and she left a crater in my heart....."

the story is about a 13 yr old boy who fell in love with the girl from the neighbour school, and takes the same sch bus as him. the girl is really pretty! if i'm gonna have a dotter.... i want my dotter to look like her =) anyway, the love the boy had for her, was so pure and innocent, and it was really sad that in the end, the girl had to leave her home for another, and they'll nv meet for the rest of their lives again.

"i love her... more than stars....", he said.

do u love ur loved ones more than stars?

janet at 9:43 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2004

i will fail my financial accounting

and that's all i hafta say.

janet at 8:17 PM

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

i'm incorrigible and feeling hot too

there's sth really bad about me that i wish i could change, cuz it's really gonna affect my grades man. i can't concentrate during exams! while doing marketing paper today right, i juz kept looking ard and at my tutors, at their dressing and shoes, and at the kappa slippers of a guy who was sitting diagonally in front of me. it's like, i read the question... write a bit off stuff... then i'm stuck, and juz too plain lazy to think harder for the answer. kai lee said she'll only be like that for the last paper. btw, this is only my 2nd paper. also to mention, during my SS paper yesterday, i was checking out gerald's SS tutor during the paper too. i'm always checking pple out during exams la... I DUNNO MAN... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!

sigh, the weather is still horribly warm these days. it's hard to get anything into my head when i'm hot. i think i should go home after my geog paper on saturday, and enjoy about 5 days of air con before my last paper on thurs. it's really darn hot... and... i shan't get started on my "windows" topic.

kai lee, qiuxia and me were crossing the road back to hall. hall mates, u guys should know what i'm talking about here. we walked to the back of the bus, then was sticking our heads out to the left to see if there were any on-coming cars. and there was la.. so the 3 of us juz stopped abruptly and stood at the road separator, which was juz a painted line (lol). i then commented (for the dunno how many times to dunno how many thousand pple alr) that one day, we'll juz get knock down. here's an extract of the conversation juz now:

me: wah lau... one day we'll juz get knock down and die lor.
kl: hahahahaha
qx: aiyaaaaa... i go draw zebra crossing for u la!
kl: HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH
me: .........
qx: very ez what... juz use paint and draw about 4 rectangles can alr mah....
kl: HARHAHRIAHRIAHRAIHRHARHAHRAR SIAO ARRRR UUUUU
me: .........

so interesting man.

janet at 11:56 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

armed with g-tec grenades, shaker flash bang, steadlar machine guns...

just had my first paper... singapore society. all i hafta say is it was pretty easy. i left 20 min early, so that i could catch the bus back to hall w/o having to squeeze with everybody else. i wrote as much as i could, but there're still some stuffs which i left out. but i was feeling very good when i left the exam hall =) so this is sign that the rest of my papers r gonna be great too! 1 down, 4 to go!

anyway, was telling keywin over dinner that i cannot accept that my siblings r growing up and they aren't the kiddy kinda siblings anymore. u know that we'll always be the kids in our parents' eyes? in the same way, i'll always think that my bro and sis r the kiddy kiddy didi and meimei. it's quite odd huh... i know they'll grow up la... like i grew up... but i guess i'm juz not used to the idea that they will grow up. it's quite worrying that there's a slight chance they might go astray? cuz i've been thru the growing up stage too, and i wasn't the guai guai kinda daddy's girl. but now i'm good, as in... good. but i've got friends who didn't become -good-, and there's this fear that ah ju and ah qing will grow up to be like uncivilised babarians with all the wrong values and stuffs lydat. there's this tendency lor, if it's hereditary, i know it. keywin says i should have confidence in em, *shrug*. time will tell.

today's gerald's bday... dun think he knows about my blog... but i wish him a happy birthday anyway =) kinda sad can't go out for dinner with them cuz i haf my marketing paper tmr.

janet at 7:54 PM

Monday, April 12, 2004

wahlau... stressed... how...

most of my hallmates r having their first paper today, and i sincerely wish that all of em will do well. im quite nervous and stressed about my exams now. gonna have my first paper tmr at 5pm... sian... 5pm leh... so late =/

here's my study checklist if u r really interested. otherwise, juz click on the tiny "x" at the top right hand corner of this page.

revision checklist:
SSA1201 Sg Society finished all the readings... need to read thru all the lengthy notes i made
BH1003 Marketing 6 more chapters to read, hafta re read all the lect notes again before paper on wed
BH1002 Financial Accounting 5 more lect notes to go... and hafta re-read too...
GE1101E Geog sigh... dowanna check....
BH2001 Macro Econs alright la... 4 more difficult chapters to read

4 of my papers r held at MPSH1... and i dun like having my papers in air con rooms... cuz i haf sweaty palms. especially when i hafta write essays and long ans or do math, my palms will sweat like crazy la. then every like 2 minutes i'll be wiping my hands on my jeans or on my sch skirt when i still needed to wear uniforms. lol.

signing out to cont revision... haven't got much time left. =/

janet at 11:00 AM

Sunday, April 11, 2004

breakfast...

well, i didn't slp after i woke up at 3am... went breakfast with the level 4 "happening" corner guys @ ginza's hawker centre. it's something i haven't done in a long long time. i remember when i was still staying at chai chee, my ah po used to bring me to the market to eat breakfast at the market during the weekends. sigh... who even bother to wake up early in the morning juz to have a family breakfast at the market?

is it part of growing up? that u'll like sorta drift apart from the family in this manner? less breakfast together, quiet dinners... *shrug*

well, very soon, im gonna have the chance to go out and eat breakfast with my family when the hols come. when i go home, when ah ju and ah qing dont have to go to sch, when my mum doesn't hafta drive those kindergarten kids to sch. ahhh.. can't wait =)

janet at 10:08 AM

CRANKY?!

and i thought i turned over a new leaf by sleeping at 11pm. HEAR THAT? 11PM!! actually, i fell asleep at 11pm reading my reading on religion . then woke up again cuz jy called.... thanks ar.... . so decided i shd rest for the night...

and i had to wake up... WHY?! IT'S FARKING HOT LAR. tonite, my window (1 window) is opened at about 11 degrees. (tmd at this pt of time, u better think im serious about my BIG PLAN on wiping out all the bugs in the world) it's 3 am for goodness sake... y can't i wake up like 6 or 7 am? at least i'll get urm.... 7 to 8 hours of sleep! i hate the weather lor. i hate the bugs. i hate where my rm is. BUT thank goodness im shifting out of this cursed room. yay.... *yawn*

and 2 persons said im cranky.. so i shd juz go continue my reading on religion.

oh, it's getting cooler... *weee...*

janet at 3:26 AM

Saturday, April 10, 2004

weather today: hot as hell

if u were to come sit in my rm for 20 min... u'll prolly be perspiring like a pig? it feels like a sauna/oven/microwave in here i swear! it's scorching hot... and the air is pretty still out there. what makes things worse is that i do not open my windows, usually. now, only one window (outta 3) is like 20 degrees opened. bugs, insects, flies, will fly into my room if i open my windows are too wide opened. really. i'm totally disgusted by, and afraid of, those eeky yucky creatures.

i've got this brilliant idea, which will make use of the maginificent technology and science.

to wipe out all cockroaches and disgusting eeky yucky creatures. to drive them to extinction. to save the human race of all agony and irritation.

how about that? noble huh? =)

janet at 2:46 PM

Friday, April 09, 2004

switchfoot - meant to live

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bid for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

janet at 9:48 AM

Thursday, April 08, 2004

cherry tomatoes cheer me up =)

i felt tired the whole of today. revised phy geog (my fav =P subj in jc...) at some secret corner of biz with some peace and quiet and had my mind off a lot of things for a while.

was listening to perfect 10 while i was there and the song "the day you went away" by M2M played. u know sometimes some songs can bring back a surge of memories? i heard this M2M song when i was in sec 2 i think... and those days when i was still close to agnes, rah, shaun, jj, jm, qw, daryl and co. those coffeebean and pasir ris beach days all came back. it's a sad truth that friends come and go? that period when we were hanging out together juz wasting friday afternoons away in cofeebean was the greatest time of my sec sch life. but... friends come and go.

well anyway, sw and eunice bought me cherry tomatoes from cold storage today cuz they went out for dinner and i didn't wanna go cuz i wanted to revise (sigh...). wonderful tasty and juicy they were.. (the tomatoes).. =)

janet at 12:14 AM

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

i shd be slping...

i ought to be slping now.. my eyes r weary, my mind's blocked. i'm tired. this emotion i'm feeling now? it could be anger. i dunno. i got pissed twice today. i hardly get angry. right ,jy? but... jy gets a lot of shit from me when i'm angry for reasons (or even no reasons at all) =P

anyway, i can't remember the last time i got really angry. sigh.. whatever.. dun feel like talking about it.

when exams r over.. i'll give myself a well-deserved break by becoming a couch potato or sth along that line. watch lotsa tv, movies, anime, whatever. do things i enjoy, go out with old friends, new friends, whatever. read my newsweek which r piling up into a mountain at home. read storybooks.. drink mocha frappuccino.. go shopping (jy, be mentally and financially prepared).

as for now, maybe i'll juz slp.

janet at 4:15 AM

Monday, April 05, 2004

yawn...

had a hard time falling aslp last nite, but still managed to wake up for marketing revision class which ellison held. she's the best tutor i've had this 2 sems, really. this sem's marketing class is much slacker than the previous. no marketing plans, no major projs.. easy class presentation.. i'd recommend everybody to take this BH1003 Principles of Marketing if LAU is the co-ordinator ya?

no monday blues.. it doesnt even feel like a monday.. i actually woke up with the feeling that it's gonna be a really nice day today, kinda odd.. but i likeeee it! nice day... nice day.... yawn....

oh i need to complain. i still have one last proj to complete, which is due this saturday. this shouldn't be happening at all. stupid financial accounting.. just my luck to get a very good tutor who makes us do extra work. but i guess it helps us understand FA better.. then again, i need to concentrate on revision too! i know i'm not gonna do well for this proj, i kinda know that i'm won't do very well for the finals too. oh heck. what i need is more time...

janet at 11:32 AM

Sunday, April 04, 2004

i remember..

suddenly, memories of studying for A levels flood my mind...

did a hell lot of funny stuffs during the mugging period with yz, mel, cindy, yx, jean & jody then.. =)

i remember smuggling biscuits, tidbits, bread and water into the lib with them and hiding in our respective study cubicles.. slping in the cubicles.. walking ard sch ogling at cute guys during toilet breaks..

i remember studying at the study bench outside LT 2, 3, and 4 until the auntie came to chase us out of the school so that she could off the lights and lock the main gate..

i remember climbing the sch gate with yz becuz we were locked in..

i remember going to BK @ eastpt on sats and suns to do past year papers for math c...

i remember yz's swollen eyes from crying too much over a jerk..

i remember eating cup noodles on sat afternoons in school..

i remember walking across the road out of tpjc to buy 10 cents "bee-bee" and bubble tea..

i remember how the girls were complaining the amt off stuff we had to study..

i remember all the consultations (useful and also NOT useful) given by karen teo, sahlan, kelvin tan, swee choo, chow mk, mrs chew..

sigh.. it's time like this that i remember how hard we all worked for the A's.. so that we could make it to U.. so, keep working hard girls.. we didnt come to uni for nothing..

janet at 2:56 PM

Friday, April 02, 2004

mugging mugging..

what's wrong with mugging? it's the exam period... everyone SHOULD be mugging. honestly, i dunno if pple r really concerned or what when they ask "going to mug ar?". it almost feel like i have the word "mugging 24/7" written on my forehead. the weird thing is, i actually get unhappy when pple think i've been mugging v hard when i didn't. and i get unhappy when pple think i'm going to mug when i'm not. wtf. what's wrong with me? what's wrong with everybody?


sigh.. i wanna go home, and i am going home. miss my family, miss jy, miss cable, miss the solitude of my own room back home, miss home-cooked food (altho it aint v nice...), miss air con, miss my subwoofer, miss the neighbours' dogs barkings.

need some love baby.. need some love..

janet at 7:26 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2004

nitemare..

woke up at 6.44am when i'm supposed to be up at only 7.15am. the best thing was, i believe i fell asleep at only 4am. turned in at 3.30am thereabout, but just couldn't sleep. so, i counted sheeps. it worked like a miracle.. at sheep number 13, i was drifting in. i know. cuz weird stuffs were sinking into my head. duno y, i became conscious about it, and resumed counting from sheep number 13. so i think i reached sheep number 20, and successfully went to slumberland.

OKAY... and what woke me up at 6.44am was... a nitemare.

yes. u heard me right.

i was walking with a friend (i'm not gonna name that friend), in block A. when i reached the 2nd floor (in my dream, it didn't look like the real 2nd floor). anyway, none of us had our matric card with us to open the gate. but i spotted a matric card near the gate. the place was pretty dark.. then i squatted down to pick up the card.. (the picture on the matric card was candice's btw... a sec sch classmate of mine) then for dunno what freaking reason, i fell. and was like glued to the floor and unmoveable. and i heard a bat. ya know? the flying dracula bat? i could hear it flying around, above me. like an eagle flying around it's prey before zooming in for it's kill. I COULD HEAR IT FLYING AROUND... MACHIAM SURROUND SOUND... left ear.. then right ear... the sound bats make to find their way around.. i was like "hey i can hear the bat... help me!" and my friend didn't budge... im not even sure if my friend was there anymore. and yar, u guessed it, the bat bit me.. at the left of my neck.

AND I SWEAR IT FARKING HURTS!

i could feel it sinking its teeth into my skin and flesh. and i could feel my blood being sucked upwards. the feeling was... WEIRD. i think i can still feel it at the left of my back... the feeling of my blood gushing up to the farking bat's mouth. ANYWAY, i just couldn't move! and nobody helped me. i thought that the bat was damn smart.. acting like a spider.. had a trap to catch its prey. and i hope that it'll realize i'm a freaking human being and stop sucking my blood and fly away. apparently it didn't.

so.. i woke up... i was so groggy that i could feel the pain in my neck and left back. and i was trying my darndest to keep my eyes open in order to not slip back in to slp, into the nitemare. then for a while i think i did.. cuz i could feel the pain. but managed to be awake enough that the nitemare went away. and guess what i heard when i woke up.. birds chirping.. it sounded like what i heard in the nitemare as the sound bats make. SIGH....

tried to slp again, but doubt i'll wake up half an hour later for my singapore society revision lecture.

i hate nitemares like this. when i was younger, i had a dream similar to this too, just that i was shot in the left back. and it farking hurts.. i could feel the pain! it's weird how one feels pain in a dream. and the dream that i was shot in, was recurring. this bat dream (pun intended) better not be a recurring dream.

my left back still has a weird feeling. think i better go check if i have dracula bite marks on my neck. out.

janet at 6:51 AM