Friday, April 29, 2005

anger is the feeling when the stomach holds a lot of tiny explosions from the bursting of bubbles created from boiling inside. when you just want to scream out loud, punch the wall, kick the table, and tear up pieces of paper. it makes the heart beatings seem louder than normal.

sadness is the feeling when the eyes keep pouring tears that seem to come from the aching heart and it drains the life out of you. it makes you want to bury your head into the pillow to suffocate and drown in your own tears. it's the need for comfort, and sometimes, the need for some alcohol to drink, some ciggies to smoke. ok wait, that's more like going down the spiral of sadness to indulge in self pity.

happiness is the feeling when there's bright twinkling in the eyes, or the uncontrollable hopping behaviour, or even that wide grin that sticks on the face for half an hour. it could be that fluttery feeling in the tummy, or the tingling at the toes. it's a feeling that wants to be shared, and could be passed on.

stress is the feeling when the head feels like it's going to explode. the restlessness that makes you want to tear your hair out. it's the desperation and helplessness of not being able to get out of a rut.

bored. i feel like writing a song. and compose a piece of piano music for it. but i don't know how to write a song. neither do i know anything about musical notes. and i don't know how to the piano.

sometimes, it's not good to try to do something you're not good at. it'll eventually get you down. i better go attempt something i know i'll succeed.

zzz...

janet at 1:51 AM