Friday, March 11, 2005

I am worth $1,403,920.00 on HumanForSale.com

as usual, there's nothing interesting going on in my life.

hall's DND tmr at Marriot's. lena borrowed 3 sari-s from her friend for veron, herself and me. =) i'm so excited! i've never worn a sari before. ok, the other 2 times when i tried the sari on do not count cuz i didn't officially wear the sari for good reasons. will post some photos up after DND. i wish my camera would work.. =T

anyway, i was thinking that if my life could be videotaped, so i will be able watch it when i'm old, it'll be quite funny. i'd be probably be laughing at the silly me. though i may never get to finish watching that tape. cuz i'm too old and i can't live (watch) my youth all over again. right? or maybe i will be able to fast forward most of my youth cuz i didn't really live it well. how will it be, when i grow old, and think of the life i've led? will i be happy that i did not waste my life away? will i be regretting the way i've lived? or will i be contented? will the happy moments overweigh the unhappy ones?

then this reminds of something i've watched or read, that God tapes everyone's lives and plays it on your judgement day. when God replays my life, the evil side of me, i would wanna kill myself and die all over again. cuz i don't believe in God and judgement day, i.e. i thought no one will know of all the evil things i've done that wasn't supposed to be. sheesh..

i don't wish for a judgement day. juz send me straight to hell or something. i won't be able to bear the embarrassment of watching myself right under God's naked eyes.

janet at 3:07 AM