Monday, December 06, 2004

i get all uneasy and my heart beats unusually fast whenever i get it. i wasn't like this in the past. in fact, i've never felt the dread, until now. something is wrong. i don't understand all these apprehension and agitation i get when it happens.

i don't understand what's going through myself and i'm bothered. cuz i loathe this feeling.

i can't talk to anyone about it. cuz it's pretty much crazy and i'm still sane. i juz need to get a grip, and i'll be back in control of my life.

forgive me if i start acting weird (or more weird than i already am).

heart's not skipping any beats now after this post. but sure ain't feeling any better. cuz i'm bound to go back to that state of mind again.

janet at 11:06 PM