Wednesday, August 25, 2004

do not look at me as though i am a freak. even though i look like one now.

usually i do not get 2nd looks from pple. today, i did. yea yea, i'm about 1 degree sunburnt. my face is peeling and i look horrible. my dad was trying to persuade me to stop doing sports out in the sun. he even told me to play badminton or table-tennis instead. wth. i don't wanna look this way too.

anyway, i'm home. nice dad fetch me from hall at 1 am in the morning and brought me to eat supper at changi. yo1 ji4 mee3 sua3. nice =) drank cough syrup b4 i left hall and now i'm like really drowsy. but since my pc is on (cuz my bro's BTing), might as well update this blog.

ok, i shall talk about sch work. let's see. erm. ok. i skipped a generel bio lecture cuz i wasn't feeling well. finance sucks. so does management accounting. the only 2 modules i enjoy are biz communication and operations management. anyway, i gave a mini-lecture in biz comm class and i was told that i'm monotonous, and that i should try to vary my voice more. i couldn't help it cuz my voice was partially lost. had to suck on 3 honey strepsils juz to get half my voice back. i sounded like a toad i swear. but that's the only bad comment i got, so that's pretty gd =) my tutor also said i was spontaneous cuz i gave a lot of examples. really, i'm not that spontaneous. i messed up my cue cards while i was up there and i thought it'd be really embarassing if i paused to look for the right cue card. so i juz stood there and talk but my mind was like in a blur.

i think i suck at talking to a crowd, especially at presentations. i get nervous, and u can tell cuz my voice will change and it won't be firm. and i'll even stutter =/ and sometimes i'll juz pause and try to collect my thoughts cuz my mind will go into a blank and i'll juz keep pausing till i laugh to relieve myself of embarrassment and still nothing will come to my mind. it's so sad, isn't it?

there's gonna be a tutorial presentation for me next monday. good luck to me man. someone pls buy me some confidence.

janet at 2:15 AM