Wednesday, June 23, 2004

just recently, like 2 days ago, i plugged in my portable radio and started listening to perfect 10 again. the last time the good old radio was plugged in was more than 1 month ago when i was still staying in hall. heard a couple songs which i instantly like: keane - somewhere only we know and dashboard confessional - vindicated. if u haven't heard these 2 songs, i recommend that u go dl them.

last nite i dreamt that my mum opened a hypermart and my friends were all saying how lucky i am to have a family business to run after i graduate. so i thought to myself in my dream that i should learn from my mum how to run the hypermart biz. but damn, in real life, i dun haf a biz i can run after i grad. i dun even haf any fucking idea what i wanna do after i graduate. and i dun even know what i wanna major, yet. logistics? finance? marketing? management? in pri sch, my teachers encouraged me to to have ambitions. i pushed the idea of having an ambition aside cuz i thought i was too young to decide what i wanna do. in sec sch, i decided i was still too young to think about my future. in jc, i thot i like geography a lot, but i decided i'd rather die than to be a geography teacher. so i thot being a business woman would be a goddam good idea. so now im studying business. a year ago, i told myself that it's still early to think about what i wanna do when i graduate. now, after a year, i still cannot decide where my interest lie. finance? marketing? management? logistics? this is frustrating. maybe i can push all these thots aside for the moment, and decide when my bleak future nears.

janet at 3:14 AM