Tuesday, October 05, 2004

i heard that there's gonna be volleyball trainings and trial soon. i can't wait to play. but i've got a situation. my fitness level isn't there anymore. not like i used to be damn fit lar. juz that i haven't been exercising for some time now. the first road relay training was juz a run around NUS and i had to stop a couple of times, and i'm not proud of that. i can't run fast, and i need to build up my stamina, if i have any in the first place.

i'm not that fast in my reactions now (tried, tested and proven). guess it's partly the 2kg that i've gained over the year. and maybe cuz i'm almost another year older. or it could be other reasons that i can't think of right now. whatever it is, this is making me feel damn sian. i think i'm gonna be really sad when i grow old. it's sort of like a helpless feeling. and i don't like it. why am i not fast enough? why why why!!!

mum's birthday coming. gonna get her a nice pair of sunglasses so she'll look cool driving her mini school van =) did i mention that my father's paying? hahaha =P sorry lar, my dad wants me to get like gucci or whatever branded shades for my mum, and i really don't have that kind of money. im glad my father knows my problem of saving disability. in fact, most of the presents i bought for my mum were paid for by my father. i think he loves her =) ok, i think the only presents i got for my mum with my own money are 1. this really pretty white gold necklace that cost me 100 odd (part of my salary as a waitress) and 2. another necklace i can't remember where i got it from. i'll make it up to her when i have a job next time. promise.

feeling family-sick.

janet at 2:20 AM