I took 6 working days off and spent 3 of those and the last weekend in Langkawi. The rest of the 3 days are spent sleeping, reading, surfing wedding blogs (which I am addicted to speed-browsing the beautiful wedding photos of ang mohs). It is truly a good break away from work. I was contemplating to log in from home to clear my emails so I can have a smooth morning tomorrow, but decided against it. Why waste a day off looking at emails when I don't have to? Right. I am so dreading work right now.
Anyway, on Langkawi - It is a really boring place. Think Phuket, less the clubs/pubs and crowd at Patong beach, and you get laid-back Pantai Cenang. Jeryd and I probably walked along the happening stretch Pantai Cenang 4 times back and forth on different days, with all the shops selling exactly the same stuff. There was absolutely nothing to buy. Shopping sucked. Food was great though, and they come cheap. As boring as Langkawi was, we still managed to keep ourselves busy with cable car rides to hill peaks, walking up hundreds of steps to see a waterfall, a snorkeling trip to have the most curious fish we've ever seen bite us (like fish spa, except it was just 1 really territorial fish), visiting pasar malam and eating street food, taking an hour bike trip to Kuah town in an attempt to shop, getting massages & floral bath, lazing by the beach and pool, and just simply enjoying the company of 2.
Now that Langkawi is over, we will have Taiwan to look forward to in June. If budget allows, I'm really hoping that we can go somewhere before June. If budget allows, I really wish to have lasik surgery done, and then go climb Mt Kinabalu and do the via ferrata. Sadly, there's no spare $$ to think about all these right now. We're trying to save as much as we can to have the photoshoot, wedding and cosy home..
So I'm anxiously waiting for year end to come, or the restructuring announcements, and see where I can go from there. I feel deprived of what I deserved for the hard work I had put into my job in 2008. I was finally able to have a closure, but this deprivation is something that I can't foresee being made up to me. Work this year is crappy for me. I should be glad I have a job after I had the honour to travel to Pune to give my job away. I have my own expectations, and honestly I know that I should not have those expectations, but I can't help thinking..
Work's a bitch, but I take comfort that I'm doing well in the other aspects of my life.
Just 6 more weeks to 2010. I wonder what lies ahead.
I don't want to nag at my children and grand children to wake up every 10 minutes on weekends once the sun comes up, or nag at them to bring an umbrella out so they won't get wet on a sunny day, or to ask the whereabouts of every single family member every half an hour.
I don't want my grand kids to hate me.
I don't want to be a difficult mother/grandmother to take care of.
I don't want to ask to pick up the telephone when actually it's the phone in the TV that's ringing.
I don't want to be asked to shut up and just go lie down and sleep cuz I nag too fucking much.
I don't want to have a goldfish memory and keep asking to be bathed or whether I've had my meals.
The list can grow on and on.
When I grow old, I want to be sane and lucid enough to be loved. I want to leave this world with everyone having fond memories of me. I want to die before I become senile or suffer dementia. What's the point of living to a ripe old age when ripe is not what I want to be. Skip and bring me right to the rot part.
I went for my very first yoga class and it was quite alright. Trying to catch on the yoga lingo and names of the poses was a bit tough. Needed to concentrate on breathing while getting the right posture wasn't easy too. I think the teacher was great. 1 hour in class with lots of stretching and breathing and feeling the inner beautiful self (which I've yet to feel) triggered some emotions at the end of the class when the teacher said to breathe in deeply, and be thankful for the blessings we have, and to feel at peace with oneself. It was a good class. Definitely want to make full use of the one week pass to unlimited classes.
If you're interested, look for the Pure Yoga ad banner on Channel News Asia's website and register for a free one week pass. Plus point about Pure Yoga, the bath cubicles have rain-showerheads. Not that I have been to the other yoga centres to compare, but I think they really have a nice environment. Of course, membership doesn't come cheap.
I think my body is rejecting exercise of any sort. I felt nauseous after class, and puked in the car park. Last friday after gym, I felt nauseous but not bad enough to regurgitate.
What's wrong with my body? This is clearly a sign that I've stopped exercising for too long now.
Shittybank pissed me off yesterday because they claimed they are unable to waive off annual fee of all mastercards this year because there's no such promo. WHAT PROMO?! I don't care if there's no promo. My annual fee was waived off last year. If it costs me $150 to have the card, I'd rather not have it. Then the customer service person whom I was talking to reminded me that it's not worth it to terminate my card because I have 2 installment payments on my mastercard. If I wish to transfer the payments to my other shittybank card, I will need to pay $200. So she tempted me with 3200 shittypoints if I pay my annual fee, or I could convert these points into Krisflyer miles. Still it not worth it. I have spent so much on my mastercard, it's absurd that the fee cannot be waived. Big deal, I'll just pay off the oustanding installments on my mastercard and terminate it then. But still she insists any change in the installment plans will incur me $100 per plan. Doesn't make any sense that I need to pay additional $200 to pay all the money I owe up-front when it's supposedly an interest-free installment right. So I insisted that I will not pay the extra money, and I want to pay everything I owe on this card, and terminate the freaking card cuz NO I WILL NOT PAY ANNUAL FEE CUZ NO ONE PAYS ANNUAL FEE. I think I was pretty rude at this point that she didn't bother being polite with me. I asked to speak to her manager and kept insisting I won't pay for anything. She put me on hold for about 10s and said management will approve my fee waiver.
Too bad I didn't have the chance to threaten to terminate the other card and my savings account to boycott shittybank for $150 annual fee which I'm damn sure no one pays for it. Maybe they will waive off my fee and give me 3200 shittypoints if I did that.
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said, Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone. I love you and that's all I really know. I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress; It's a love story - baby just say yes.
